Today is a new day, I will pick myself up dust my self off and start all over again. That is life for me living in “The Flight or Fight Syndrome.” I have spent the last 2 years trying to build my business to help others. I have invested all my savings into this business. I call”Little Darling’s Emotional Healing”. I have created it to provide a voice for children experiencing tough upbringings, emotional life experiences or trauma. I also became “Life Coach Kerrie “to help children grow to be healthy adults by teaching Mindset Development to children 6-12 years which are their developmental years. Yes, I live with Mental Health at no fault of my own. Mental Health, by the way, is like any other disease like diabetes, cancer and you get the picture, but it has a stigma attached to it. I had no control over it and it was caused by childhood trauma and a biochemical disposition passed down to me. It is not a fun way to live and until you are there you probably have a hard time understanding it. However, it has been proven that one in five people will experience a mental health problem at some point in their life. It could be you or your child next.
My Flight or Flight struck again two days ago when my computer was hacked, all my hard work was taken out of my website and re-arranged and my copy has been taken out and missing from the pages. My many hours of hard work and the cost just gone from my pages. The Hackers were even on my desk-top re-arranging my sidebar. I now have video screens that were added to my pages and big gaps with my missing content. Others were running video ads on my site. Yes, It that easy to get hacked! Now I am left to sort it out. I am just coming back to homeostasis, I have not slept much, my body and headache are starting to relax the sense of panic it moving on now.
Living in “The Flight-or-Fight Response” also called hyperarousal or the acute stress response should be sticking around my entire life. This physiological reaction that occurs in response to a perceived harmful event, attack, or threat to survival. It was first described by Walter Bradford Cannon. His theory states that animals react to threats with a general discharge of the sympathetic nervous system, preparing the animal for fighting or fleeing.
What happens to a person when a threat like an attack or harmful event or threat to survival takes place our brain processes the signals, which then begins our amygdala and then the hypothalamus of our brain to kick in. From the brain off to our pituitary gland where cortisol and adrenaline are released into the nervous system. The physical effects can be increased heart rate, shaking, tunnel vision dilated pupils and dry mouth to name a few.
Trauma causes a person to live in “The Flight or Flight Mode”. It is like a battlefield within your own body. It changes your brain and the way you think. To live in a normal body with a plot that flows smoothly is only a dream. Trauma can leave traces on our minds, emotions and our immune systems. Something many people do not understand about traumatized people is if their stress hormones are triggered like yours and you both are being chased by a lion and you both getaway, it will take the traumatized person so much longer to return to normal. The scare would also spike their emotions much higher than yours. Sometimes it can take us a day or two to return to normal. Along with the many soldiers suffering from trauma from combat, there are many children with their lives being shattered just growing up in their family homes. This is so tragic, I myself want to see an end to. It is so difficult for children to recover from the source of terror of their own caretakers.
Then there are the people. The people in your day to day life. They see you functioning as a normal person in society, on the outside, so it is okay to treat you however they seem fit. No one really knows what other people may be going through. You could be the one to push them off the edge. You could be the last trigger that brings up within moments the memories and pain of the past. You are the lucky one your plot is smooth and you have not lived in the pain, you are not stuck in Flight or Fight or had to have a taste of it or live with it. Please try to understand that something that happened ten years ago can be triggered. The frantic alarm system can go off and the sensations, sounds and images all can be activated within moments and the sensations come-up ten times the extent of what yours might be in comparison. We are all “One” and we we all be going to the same place in the end. If we start to educate ourselves and life with compassion, life for us all would be so much brighter. Human suffering is related to love and loss.